Feeling down today. For many reasons. I don't understand the language. It's cold in my apartment. It's grey outside. I'm out of my comfort zone in so many ways. My friends and family are all continents away. I'm full of dread and loathing for a test I have to take soon (the Italian drivers exam in Italian).
I study and do okay but no where near passing.
I've been here 12 days. I have to just keep reminding myself of that. I have nowhere to walk to. I want to put the baby in the stroller, but there are few sidewalks and the in-laws will probably give me shit for taking the baby out in the rain. They already think I'm a terrible mother. They bought vegetables to make baby food for her without even asking me. I guess I have to take or leave everything.
I just looked out the window and there's snow on the mountains.
Everything takes forever to do. I just want to lie in bed and do nothing for awhile but there's just so much to do and nothing I can do.
Tomorrow, I go back for more Italian lessons at the school for Stranieri.